A sleep deprived Alex feels alright feat. comments on porn

my eyes feel like they are falling out of my socket, which reminds me, I was reading something about the link between the porn industry and rape yesterday, and I learned that one of the most common ailments in women in porn is this thing where there ANUS collapses out. It usually happens 3 months in the industry because of all the cruel stuff women are made to perform. As in, her anus will fall out of her body, be sewn back in, and she will rock up to work, and do the same thing all over again, because people are begging for more and more hardcore videos these days, now some pornographers want to impose a rule that allows women who look like they are under the age of 18 to be in these movies (it is illegal right now, and I understand why). The bill might pass, it will definitely influence rape culture for the worst.

I am not anti-porn, I actually don’t see anything wrong with it, but when rules like these start being pushed for I wonder how far people are willing to go to hurt others and make it legal.

And i feel for the women with the anuses falling out. I can only imagine the pain.

Anyway, I am okay, felt a bit lonely, and I was wondering why I work so hard, on this project when gap years are for pregnancy scares and hang overs, not starting businesses, and then I got a message from one of the people I showcased telling me how good it felt that we had recognised her work, and it all felt SO WORTH IT. My brother also pointed out that if I wasn’t doing this project I would feel lost and alone and hopeless, I guess he is right. I feel closer to the soul of the universe like this (The Alchemist was right). I feel a sense of self worth that I have never had before, my start up is my soul food.

My mentor sent me a Sampha song, I should make it clear now that if you send me a song by anyone affiliated with YOUNG TURKS records I will take it as a marriage proposal, okay? (that’s how much I love those guys!)

And Anna’s friend who is in college with her, who is freakishly intuitive and connected to the universe (I swear, he senses stuff before it happens and he knows things no one has even said yet, weird) tagged us both in a pic that described the word when you can’t say exactly how you feel. I laughed it off, Anna has vanished again, I think I made her quit Facebook for a bit. ah well.

Not sure where i’d be if I couldn’t blog like this. it feels good.

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